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| You know when you need to do something
A really, quite simple task
In order to do it, you actually have to do.. less?
But you can't bring yourself to do it for one reason or another.
You tax your mind and try to find
the cause to this resistance
When, it all could be really so, easy.
So you stay away.
And do other tasks to pass the time...
these... tasks.. are the illness.
And the word is the cure.
The word of many; your own.
And it's all right here.
But you don't listen, because it is never said.
Maybe I can say it this week. | | |
| AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
About it all
especially the last one.
I think I completely screwed up this time.
I'm losing it
Not all of it
but a lot
RAH | | |
| I've gotta stop doing this... C
And that. H | | |
| I genuinely like you.
And this frightens me for mainly two reasons:
1. I haven't felt something like this in a while, it's been a while. Maybe it's just been a while.
2. I have this feeling that you won't ever know, because I'll never tell you, because you'll be preoccupied with something or someone else. I feel as if you're not interested. I feel as though you'd reject. Neglect.
And I feel as though I'm running out of time. Generally, no, I've got a plenty (i hope). But when I move is not when my life will shift and I grow up. It's when school ends, the last thing holding me here. And at that point everything changes. And what is with me for the trip will stay with me, but what isn't will be left behind at the port. And though I'll be back, it isn't the same. Or it may not be there for me.
Oh, woe.
YMAYTSINL
Turmoil. | | |
| So. I have experience numerous encounters of my sense being overwhelmed.
No, not overwhelmed. Just. Okay, I will share.
December third:
I pretty much had one of the best meals of my life.
Though, of course, meals are relevant. You may eat a fabulous steak but already be pretty full so it may not be as satisfying as a double cheeseburger from mcdonalds when you haven't eaten all day
[side note, I am not implying steaks are awesome and mcdonalds double cheeseburgers suck. in fact I'd uusally choose the latter any day. I really don't like steaks that much and I do quite enjoy the Mcdonalds double cheeseburger for a dollar, just an example.]
Anyway. But this meal, I feel, I was just the right amount of hungry, so it nullified hunger bias. But it was truly delicious. I enjoyed every single bit of it and it was my favorite meal And I like to think about it.
I can't explain it, ask me in person and I'll give you the details.
So good.
Tonight: I saw something beautiful.
The moon was full, and everything was blue.
Yeah Yeah, i've seen it before.
Well, the ground was covered in snow, so everything was white,
Yeah yeah I've seen it before.
Both of these individually provide a lot of light, and make night seem a little less like Night.
Well I walked out tonight, moon full, directly overhead, reflecting off the snow.
And It seemed like day.
It was truly an experience I can't quite capture, nor express with words.
All I could do is take in the beauty and let it swallow me.
I didn't move. I just looked.
Ahhhhhh. | | |
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